1 00:00:05,923 --> 00:00:07,258 -NARRATOR: Who are you 2 00:00:07,341 --> 00:00:09,760 if you can't remember who you are? 3 00:00:09,844 --> 00:00:11,137 ♪♪ (theme) 4 00:00:31,115 --> 00:00:32,908 (gulls squawking) 5 00:00:37,997 --> 00:00:39,832 (surf crashing) 6 00:00:47,840 --> 00:00:49,717 -MAN (on speaker): Crashing Hills Memory Center. 7 00:00:49,800 --> 00:00:51,635 -Yeah. I'm here to see a patient in the Alzheimer's ward. 8 00:00:51,719 --> 00:00:53,971 -You're a visitor? -Yes. 9 00:00:54,054 --> 00:00:55,973 -I'm sorry, but our Solos aren't allowed visitors. 10 00:00:56,056 --> 00:00:58,142 -Yeah, I know. I just... 11 00:00:59,518 --> 00:01:00,603 I traveled a long way. 12 00:01:00,686 --> 00:01:02,938 -They're meant to stay as Solos. 13 00:01:03,022 --> 00:01:04,106 -Yeah, I know the rules. 14 00:01:04,190 --> 00:01:06,692 Can you make an exception? 15 00:01:08,235 --> 00:01:10,112 Just this once? 16 00:01:26,545 --> 00:01:28,798 Are you Stuart Waldo Thompson? 17 00:01:30,966 --> 00:01:32,635 -Yes. 18 00:01:32,718 --> 00:01:33,969 -(sighs) 19 00:01:34,053 --> 00:01:36,305 (chuckles) 20 00:01:51,987 --> 00:01:54,406 Are you Clark Kent? 21 00:01:54,490 --> 00:01:56,033 -Yes. 22 00:01:56,116 --> 00:01:57,368 -Are you Mickey Mouse? 23 00:01:59,328 --> 00:02:00,454 -Yes. 24 00:02:10,840 --> 00:02:12,174 -(chuckles) 25 00:02:12,258 --> 00:02:14,260 Hello, Stuart. 26 00:02:16,095 --> 00:02:18,889 (beeping) 27 00:02:18,973 --> 00:02:21,684 "Install stem cells directly into the blood stream. 28 00:02:21,767 --> 00:02:27,773 Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutes." 29 00:02:27,857 --> 00:02:29,233 This is gonna hurt. 30 00:02:31,402 --> 00:02:33,362 Rightfully so. 31 00:02:33,445 --> 00:02:34,613 (device hissing) 32 00:02:50,004 --> 00:02:51,297 (beeping) 33 00:02:51,380 --> 00:02:53,007 Okay. 34 00:02:53,090 --> 00:02:56,802 Phase one... base memory. 35 00:02:57,970 --> 00:03:00,097 Okay. 36 00:03:06,061 --> 00:03:08,105 Do you hear me, Stuart? 37 00:03:12,401 --> 00:03:13,986 Fuck. 38 00:03:15,696 --> 00:03:16,947 Okay. 39 00:03:17,823 --> 00:03:19,533 Look at that light. 40 00:03:19,617 --> 00:03:21,035 What color is that? 41 00:03:22,912 --> 00:03:25,915 -Green. It's green, isn't it? 42 00:03:27,291 --> 00:03:29,084 (chuckles) Green. 43 00:03:29,168 --> 00:03:31,587 (laughing) 44 00:03:31,670 --> 00:03:33,505 Yeah. Not blue, not yellow, 45 00:03:33,589 --> 00:03:36,675 not red, not white. 46 00:03:36,759 --> 00:03:38,636 That's green. 47 00:03:38,719 --> 00:03:40,888 -That's right. -Green. 48 00:03:42,932 --> 00:03:46,143 Green like grass. 49 00:03:46,226 --> 00:03:50,272 Green like trees, leaves... 50 00:03:50,356 --> 00:03:51,565 salamanders. 51 00:03:51,649 --> 00:03:54,276 -Keep going. -(chuckles) 52 00:03:54,360 --> 00:03:55,819 Green beans, alligators... 53 00:03:55,903 --> 00:03:58,155 Oh, green beans, I love green beans. 54 00:03:58,238 --> 00:03:59,907 Yeah. 55 00:03:59,990 --> 00:04:01,408 -And what else is green? 56 00:04:01,492 --> 00:04:04,286 -Green like peas and pickles 57 00:04:04,370 --> 00:04:08,415 and... and parakeets. 58 00:04:08,499 --> 00:04:10,125 The Incredible Hulk. 59 00:04:10,209 --> 00:04:12,211 The Grinch... the Grinch who stole Christmas. 60 00:04:12,294 --> 00:04:13,587 -(chuckles) 61 00:04:13,671 --> 00:04:15,172 -Yeah. 62 00:04:15,255 --> 00:04:17,508 Four-leaf clovers, 63 00:04:17,591 --> 00:04:19,301 praying mantis, 64 00:04:19,385 --> 00:04:21,845 the Emerald City, 65 00:04:21,929 --> 00:04:23,180 Kermit the fuckin' frog. 66 00:04:23,263 --> 00:04:24,348 -(chuckles) 67 00:04:24,431 --> 00:04:25,891 -It's not easy being green. 68 00:04:25,975 --> 00:04:28,602 -That's good, Stuart, really good. 69 00:04:28,686 --> 00:04:30,688 Now, tell me, where are we, huh? 70 00:04:30,771 --> 00:04:32,064 What's this place called? 71 00:04:32,147 --> 00:04:34,817 -This is a, uh... 72 00:04:34,900 --> 00:04:37,361 -I know you can remember. -Um... 73 00:04:39,405 --> 00:04:41,240 Beach. This is a beach! 74 00:04:41,323 --> 00:04:43,283 -That's right. -Yeah, we're on a beach. 75 00:04:43,367 --> 00:04:44,827 All this shit here is sand, 76 00:04:44,910 --> 00:04:46,495 just sand. 77 00:04:46,578 --> 00:04:48,497 And that? 78 00:04:48,580 --> 00:04:50,916 That's the sea, huh? 79 00:04:51,000 --> 00:04:52,292 -That's right. -Not a river, not a pond, 80 00:04:52,376 --> 00:04:54,962 not a lake, not a puddle... 81 00:04:55,045 --> 00:04:56,422 the sea. 82 00:04:56,505 --> 00:04:58,257 -Don't stop now. -Hmm. 83 00:04:58,340 --> 00:05:00,759 The waves. 84 00:05:00,843 --> 00:05:03,012 The waves crashing. 85 00:05:03,095 --> 00:05:07,224 Crashing like timpani drums in Beethoven's Sixth, 86 00:05:07,307 --> 00:05:10,310 like... like... like fireworks on the Fourth of July. 87 00:05:12,813 --> 00:05:16,817 -Twenty percent. You're doing so well, Stuart. 88 00:05:16,900 --> 00:05:20,237 -Whoa, whoa, whoa. -Look at me. Look at me, man. 89 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:22,197 I can amble. (laughing) 90 00:05:22,322 --> 00:05:24,742 I can... My muscles remember. 91 00:05:24,825 --> 00:05:26,952 My bones reacquaint. 92 00:05:27,036 --> 00:05:28,287 (laughing) 93 00:05:28,370 --> 00:05:31,373 Look. I can dance. 94 00:05:31,457 --> 00:05:35,085 Soft shoe, tap, jazz, 95 00:05:35,169 --> 00:05:39,089 Macarena, Electric Slide. 96 00:05:39,173 --> 00:05:41,508 Hey, watch. 97 00:05:41,592 --> 00:05:44,386 Watch me, quick. (chuckles) 98 00:05:44,470 --> 00:05:46,555 Oh, yeah. Watch me Nae Nae. 99 00:05:46,638 --> 00:05:48,974 Whoop! Whoo! 100 00:05:49,058 --> 00:05:50,809 (chuckles) 101 00:05:50,893 --> 00:05:52,102 I can sing. 102 00:05:52,186 --> 00:05:54,104 Oh, I love to sing, always have. 103 00:05:54,188 --> 00:05:59,943 ♪ Wise men say ♪ 104 00:06:00,027 --> 00:06:04,573 ♪ Only fools rush in ♪ 105 00:06:04,656 --> 00:06:10,037 ♪ For once in my life I have someone who needs me ♪ 106 00:06:10,120 --> 00:06:11,663 (chuckles) 107 00:06:11,747 --> 00:06:13,040 ♪ I miss the old Kanye ♪ 108 00:06:13,123 --> 00:06:14,291 ♪ Straight from the go Kanye ♪ 109 00:06:14,374 --> 00:06:15,793 ♪ Chop up the soul Kanye ♪ 110 00:06:15,876 --> 00:06:18,295 ♪ Set on his goals Kanye ♪ 111 00:06:18,378 --> 00:06:19,963 (laughing) 112 00:06:22,091 --> 00:06:23,008 Ah, yeah. 113 00:06:23,092 --> 00:06:24,802 Yeah. 114 00:06:25,886 --> 00:06:28,972 The dope jams... 115 00:06:29,056 --> 00:06:31,600 the lit bangers. 116 00:06:32,768 --> 00:06:34,061 I know again. 117 00:06:36,939 --> 00:06:40,692 And I know that I know. 118 00:06:49,159 --> 00:06:51,578 But I don't know you. 119 00:06:53,122 --> 00:06:54,123 -No? 120 00:06:54,206 --> 00:06:56,125 -Why are you doing this? 121 00:06:56,208 --> 00:06:59,628 Why are you doing this for me? Hmm? 122 00:06:59,711 --> 00:07:04,216 -Um, I'm from the National Health Service. 123 00:07:04,299 --> 00:07:07,386 NHS? Well, if you think you're going to pay for this 124 00:07:07,427 --> 00:07:08,679 with my pension, you gotta another thing coming. 125 00:07:08,720 --> 00:07:11,765 -It's covered, Stuart. Memory regeneration is universal. 126 00:07:13,392 --> 00:07:17,104 Take stem cells, inject them into you, 127 00:07:17,187 --> 00:07:20,274 and regenerates total brain function, 128 00:07:20,357 --> 00:07:23,735 and soon after recovers all of your memories. 129 00:07:23,819 --> 00:07:25,070 -My memories? 130 00:07:27,656 --> 00:07:28,824 And it's free? 131 00:07:28,907 --> 00:07:31,368 -It's free. 132 00:07:31,451 --> 00:07:33,495 -As it should be. 133 00:07:33,579 --> 00:07:36,665 I know at first that they were, that they were selling 134 00:07:36,748 --> 00:07:39,334 this cure for Alzheimer's. 135 00:07:39,418 --> 00:07:40,878 Yeah. 136 00:07:40,961 --> 00:07:45,174 But I always said, ought to be a human right. 137 00:07:45,257 --> 00:07:48,135 It's awful in there... 138 00:07:48,218 --> 00:07:51,138 that demented fog of dementia. 139 00:07:51,221 --> 00:07:54,391 In there it's like being buried alive 140 00:07:54,474 --> 00:07:55,475 or cast in amber, 141 00:07:55,559 --> 00:07:59,354 but still puttering inside. 142 00:08:03,108 --> 00:08:05,611 You want to roar. You wish to scream, 143 00:08:05,694 --> 00:08:10,949 but screams and roars are all banned in that land. 144 00:08:11,033 --> 00:08:15,495 No crying, no mercy. 145 00:08:15,579 --> 00:08:18,957 No wishes or prayers. 146 00:08:19,041 --> 00:08:22,211 You cry out for your mother or your father 147 00:08:22,294 --> 00:08:24,296 or your God. 148 00:08:28,467 --> 00:08:31,553 But they're all gone too. 149 00:08:31,637 --> 00:08:33,805 They've all left in the fog. 150 00:08:33,889 --> 00:08:39,144 And the terror and the fury arises in you. 151 00:08:39,228 --> 00:08:41,355 (scoffs) I exist! 152 00:08:41,438 --> 00:08:45,067 You wanna shout, "I exist!" 153 00:08:45,150 --> 00:08:47,152 I exist! 154 00:08:49,655 --> 00:08:51,865 But you surely do not. 155 00:08:51,949 --> 00:08:54,076 Not in this land. 156 00:08:56,578 --> 00:09:00,332 But then you came. 157 00:09:00,415 --> 00:09:04,086 You burned off all the fog. 158 00:09:04,169 --> 00:09:06,630 And I can remember again. 159 00:09:08,423 --> 00:09:09,800 I'm alive, my son. 160 00:09:12,678 --> 00:09:14,805 And you're to blame. 161 00:09:14,888 --> 00:09:16,098 (device beeps) 162 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:20,477 -Phase one is complete. 163 00:09:20,560 --> 00:09:23,689 Brain regeneration is at 50%. 164 00:09:23,772 --> 00:09:26,358 Now comes the rest. Phase two. 165 00:09:27,567 --> 00:09:30,737 Personal memory and recovery. 166 00:09:30,821 --> 00:09:32,364 (beeping) 167 00:09:37,577 --> 00:09:38,996 Hang on tight. 168 00:09:39,079 --> 00:09:40,455 ♪♪ 169 00:09:58,056 --> 00:09:59,975 What do you remember? 170 00:10:01,560 --> 00:10:04,896 -My wife's farts at night. 171 00:10:04,980 --> 00:10:07,649 Code Red. Code Blue. 172 00:10:11,069 --> 00:10:14,281 Floating in my best friend Nia's pool. 173 00:10:14,364 --> 00:10:16,742 Looking up at the clouds. 174 00:10:16,825 --> 00:10:19,911 Watching "13 Going on 30." 175 00:10:19,995 --> 00:10:24,791 Seeing Ming Chong in the supermarket. 176 00:10:24,875 --> 00:10:28,003 Flying down that blue slide into Mom's arms. 177 00:10:28,086 --> 00:10:29,504 -Blue slide. 178 00:10:31,965 --> 00:10:33,383 Where was that. 179 00:10:33,467 --> 00:10:36,053 -In the park... 180 00:10:36,136 --> 00:10:37,971 with the big trees and a duck pond. 181 00:10:40,265 --> 00:10:42,601 -The woman... the mother... 182 00:10:42,684 --> 00:10:44,728 What does she look like? 183 00:10:45,812 --> 00:10:47,439 -It's all I can remember. 184 00:10:47,522 --> 00:10:49,316 -It can't be everything. 185 00:10:49,399 --> 00:10:53,070 -Well, yeah, yeah, that's all there is. 186 00:10:53,153 --> 00:10:55,405 -That's all the memories? 187 00:10:55,489 --> 00:10:57,324 -Afraid so. 188 00:10:57,407 --> 00:10:58,909 -Are you sure? 189 00:10:58,992 --> 00:11:00,702 -Of course, I'm sure. 190 00:11:00,786 --> 00:11:02,621 I already said I'm sure. 191 00:11:04,122 --> 00:11:05,624 That's all there is. 192 00:11:05,707 --> 00:11:08,543 That's all I can remember, okay? 193 00:11:08,627 --> 00:11:11,004 -Do you remember me, Stuart? 194 00:11:11,088 --> 00:11:13,382 -I'm afraid we've just met. 195 00:11:15,509 --> 00:11:16,760 What... What is this? 196 00:11:16,843 --> 00:11:19,137 Is this some kind of NHS thing, huh? 197 00:11:19,221 --> 00:11:22,140 Like a shakedown of a poor 198 00:11:22,182 --> 00:11:25,811 Alzheimer's patient's pension fund? 199 00:11:25,852 --> 00:11:26,978 -Were you ever diagnosed? 200 00:11:28,980 --> 00:11:30,899 -Of course. 201 00:11:30,982 --> 00:11:33,276 -Alzheimer's patients exhibit identical symptoms 202 00:11:33,360 --> 00:11:36,446 to aging memory addicts. 203 00:11:36,530 --> 00:11:40,450 If you install too many recollections, 204 00:11:40,534 --> 00:11:44,287 over time, your neurons were destroyed. 205 00:11:44,371 --> 00:11:45,831 So you know what I think, Stuart? 206 00:11:49,251 --> 00:11:51,628 That after years of stealing memories, 207 00:11:51,711 --> 00:11:54,047 your brain was dying, not from Alzheimer's, 208 00:11:54,131 --> 00:11:55,966 but from your addiction. 209 00:11:56,049 --> 00:11:59,845 -Son, you... you must have the wrong man. 210 00:11:59,928 --> 00:12:01,930 -I know who you are. 211 00:12:02,013 --> 00:12:03,515 -Case of mistaken identity. 212 00:12:03,598 --> 00:12:05,100 -I know what you did. 213 00:12:05,183 --> 00:12:07,519 -I didn't do anything. 214 00:12:07,602 --> 00:12:12,107 -I spent the past 11 years... 215 00:12:12,190 --> 00:12:17,237 trying to find the monster who took the memories of my mom, 216 00:12:17,320 --> 00:12:20,740 who started by hacking into company servers, 217 00:12:20,824 --> 00:12:24,536 and graduated to violently assaulting people, 218 00:12:24,619 --> 00:12:27,456 who stuck an extractor 219 00:12:27,539 --> 00:12:29,541 right into their fucking brains 220 00:12:29,624 --> 00:12:32,002 and downloaded the memories. 221 00:12:32,085 --> 00:12:34,546 I've long thought about this day... 222 00:12:34,629 --> 00:12:38,967 about the day I would find the man who took her from me 223 00:12:39,050 --> 00:12:42,429 in that hospital hall by the vending machine 224 00:12:42,512 --> 00:12:44,264 who stripped that little boy 225 00:12:44,347 --> 00:12:47,642 of every memory of the mom he just lost. 226 00:12:58,361 --> 00:13:00,155 -What do you want? 227 00:13:00,238 --> 00:13:02,991 -What do I want? 228 00:13:03,074 --> 00:13:06,286 Do you know what my earliest memory is? 229 00:13:08,538 --> 00:13:10,624 A dark shadow... 230 00:13:10,707 --> 00:13:12,042 reaching out to me. 231 00:13:13,460 --> 00:13:16,171 I can't see her face or her body. 232 00:13:16,254 --> 00:13:18,215 She's a glitch, a blur. 233 00:13:19,674 --> 00:13:21,885 Pixelated, buffering. 234 00:13:21,968 --> 00:13:23,762 A dark fog. 235 00:13:26,681 --> 00:13:28,850 I can't even see her. 236 00:13:28,934 --> 00:13:31,770 My own mother, and I can't even see her. 237 00:13:31,853 --> 00:13:33,772 And I can't hear her. 238 00:13:33,855 --> 00:13:37,484 Not a laugh or a cry... 239 00:13:37,567 --> 00:13:39,778 or a... 240 00:13:39,861 --> 00:13:41,905 "I love you, sweetheart." 241 00:13:41,988 --> 00:13:43,698 I can't even miss her, Stuart. 242 00:13:45,242 --> 00:13:47,452 My own, mother, and I can't even miss her. 243 00:13:50,330 --> 00:13:52,332 And the worst part of all? 244 00:13:52,415 --> 00:13:56,753 Is that the only place she still exists 245 00:13:56,836 --> 00:13:59,381 is in there. 246 00:13:59,464 --> 00:14:01,258 And it's a shitty feeling, you know. 247 00:14:01,341 --> 00:14:04,094 'Cause the fucked up thing is 248 00:14:04,177 --> 00:14:06,179 now I need you. 249 00:14:08,765 --> 00:14:10,308 So what do I want, Stuart? 250 00:14:13,311 --> 00:14:14,604 I want what's mine. 251 00:14:16,273 --> 00:14:18,858 I want you to give me back what you took from me. 252 00:14:20,735 --> 00:14:21,778 I want her. 253 00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:28,618 -I can't. 254 00:14:29,494 --> 00:14:31,079 -You give me her, 255 00:14:31,162 --> 00:14:32,914 and I won't tell the authorities about you. 256 00:14:32,998 --> 00:14:34,249 I won't bring you in. 257 00:14:34,332 --> 00:14:36,710 You can live out your days here. 258 00:14:47,095 --> 00:14:50,223 -How do I know? 259 00:14:50,307 --> 00:14:53,977 How can I know you'll hold up your end? 260 00:14:56,980 --> 00:14:58,857 -What choice do you have? 261 00:15:08,783 --> 00:15:09,993 Oh, well. 262 00:15:14,789 --> 00:15:17,917 -Blue. Blue eyes. 263 00:15:20,754 --> 00:15:24,174 She had blue eyes. 264 00:15:26,051 --> 00:15:28,511 -Blue how? 265 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:30,764 -Blue like the Mediterranean at twilight. 266 00:15:33,808 --> 00:15:36,311 Blue like a starling's feathers. 267 00:15:39,814 --> 00:15:44,861 Blue like an aster flower just moments after bloom. 268 00:15:44,944 --> 00:15:49,074 -She had blue eyes. -Mmm. 269 00:15:49,157 --> 00:15:52,035 And clumps of mascara. 270 00:15:52,118 --> 00:15:54,037 Always clumps. 271 00:15:56,706 --> 00:16:00,293 And when she looked at you... 272 00:16:00,377 --> 00:16:03,505 when she looked at you, my God, 273 00:16:03,588 --> 00:16:07,050 -her eyes opened wide. -Really? 274 00:16:07,133 --> 00:16:09,427 -Yeah. Right. 275 00:16:09,511 --> 00:16:11,721 And she cooed when she saw you. 276 00:16:11,805 --> 00:16:15,141 (chuckles) 277 00:16:15,225 --> 00:16:19,854 Involuntarily, she cooed when you walked into her room. 278 00:16:19,938 --> 00:16:21,981 She would gasp... 279 00:16:22,065 --> 00:16:25,777 as if she thought how... 280 00:16:25,860 --> 00:16:28,488 how could this boy be so perfect? 281 00:16:28,571 --> 00:16:33,868 How could I have made such a beautiful kid? 282 00:16:33,952 --> 00:16:35,829 How could he be mine? 283 00:16:35,912 --> 00:16:38,540 -She'd gasp when she saw me? 284 00:16:38,623 --> 00:16:39,666 -Yeah. 285 00:16:39,749 --> 00:16:41,876 And she smelled like lavender. 286 00:16:41,960 --> 00:16:44,587 -(chuckles) -It was the detergent she used. 287 00:16:44,671 --> 00:16:46,923 -(chuckles) 288 00:16:47,006 --> 00:16:48,967 -I've always loved the smell of lavender. 289 00:16:49,008 --> 00:16:49,759 -Mm-hmm. 290 00:16:49,801 --> 00:16:51,886 -She would do this thing. 291 00:16:53,930 --> 00:16:57,642 Whenever she saw me... you... 292 00:16:57,726 --> 00:16:59,769 in the morning, 293 00:16:59,853 --> 00:17:03,898 she would hold out her hand as if for a handshake, 294 00:17:03,982 --> 00:17:06,776 like... like we were business partners. 295 00:17:06,860 --> 00:17:08,153 And she would say, 296 00:17:08,194 --> 00:17:12,240 "Nice to make your acquaintance, Mr. Man." 297 00:17:12,282 --> 00:17:13,825 (chuckles) 298 00:17:15,869 --> 00:17:20,665 And she'd take you to the playground every day 299 00:17:20,749 --> 00:17:23,710 to feed the ducks and play. 300 00:17:23,793 --> 00:17:26,045 -And there was this... -Slide. 301 00:17:26,129 --> 00:17:28,631 -Yeah. Big blue slide. 302 00:17:28,715 --> 00:17:32,010 It was like your Everest. 303 00:17:32,093 --> 00:17:35,054 You saw her growing small. 304 00:17:35,138 --> 00:17:38,767 And then you slid down... 305 00:17:38,850 --> 00:17:40,560 -Wrapped her arms? 306 00:17:43,438 --> 00:17:45,148 -And she held you tight. 307 00:17:47,108 --> 00:17:50,487 I don't know what came over her that day... 308 00:17:50,570 --> 00:17:55,909 but her eyes were watery, and her little nose... 309 00:17:55,992 --> 00:17:58,161 -Her nose? What... -Yeah. 310 00:17:58,244 --> 00:18:01,372 Like a button. Small, red... 311 00:18:03,374 --> 00:18:09,255 And she said, "I will always catch you, Otto. 312 00:18:09,339 --> 00:18:11,132 I will never let you fall." 313 00:18:15,595 --> 00:18:16,846 -She sounds lovely. 314 00:18:18,556 --> 00:18:19,766 -She was. 315 00:18:21,434 --> 00:18:24,354 She really was. 316 00:18:26,064 --> 00:18:28,441 -And so were you. -(scoffs) 317 00:18:28,525 --> 00:18:29,984 -A lovely boy. 318 00:18:32,654 --> 00:18:34,864 -Why? 319 00:18:34,948 --> 00:18:36,908 Why'd you take those memories from that little boy 320 00:18:36,991 --> 00:18:40,036 in that hospital hall who just lost his mom? 321 00:18:54,717 --> 00:18:56,094 -I had a child once. 322 00:18:58,847 --> 00:19:01,224 A beautiful boy. 323 00:19:02,767 --> 00:19:06,646 During the Stay, I... I began to think him a nuisance. 324 00:19:08,439 --> 00:19:10,859 An annoyance. 325 00:19:10,942 --> 00:19:15,446 An interruption to the screens that I loved, 326 00:19:15,530 --> 00:19:17,240 to the devices I cherished. 327 00:19:21,369 --> 00:19:25,498 I made excuses not to play with him. 328 00:19:25,582 --> 00:19:28,918 Not to help him with his school. 329 00:19:29,002 --> 00:19:33,590 Not to show him the stars or tuck him into bed at night. 330 00:19:36,593 --> 00:19:38,636 And then one day... 331 00:19:38,720 --> 00:19:42,724 (sighs) 332 00:19:42,807 --> 00:19:44,267 One day he got sick. 333 00:19:47,103 --> 00:19:50,607 Virus took him in its arms... 334 00:19:50,690 --> 00:19:54,903 and he ailed and glitched and... 335 00:19:54,986 --> 00:19:58,698 begged for breath... 336 00:19:58,781 --> 00:20:00,909 until he was gone. 337 00:20:04,203 --> 00:20:05,914 And the light left my world. 338 00:20:09,375 --> 00:20:16,090 And when he passed, I roamed the streets for days, 339 00:20:16,174 --> 00:20:17,675 wishing to disappear. 340 00:20:19,093 --> 00:20:20,929 Wishing to die. 341 00:20:22,472 --> 00:20:26,351 Wishing to leave on a rocket ship or... 342 00:20:26,434 --> 00:20:28,478 stay locked in my Stay 343 00:20:28,561 --> 00:20:31,064 or... 344 00:20:31,147 --> 00:20:32,774 travel to the future... 345 00:20:32,857 --> 00:20:36,527 or... or be punished forever. 346 00:20:39,197 --> 00:20:42,075 Wishing I had seen my boy for what he was. 347 00:20:44,786 --> 00:20:46,454 Which was the whole world. 348 00:20:53,127 --> 00:20:56,255 I couldn't bear the memories of him. 349 00:20:56,339 --> 00:20:58,800 So I spiraled and tumbled and... 350 00:21:01,594 --> 00:21:02,929 That's when I started. 351 00:21:04,389 --> 00:21:06,349 Stealing. Thieving. 352 00:21:09,894 --> 00:21:15,191 I needed to stop my heart from this god-awful bleeding. 353 00:21:18,069 --> 00:21:22,281 I stole the other memories to rid myself of my own. 354 00:21:22,365 --> 00:21:24,158 I stole from them. 355 00:21:25,952 --> 00:21:30,039 From hundreds of victims. 356 00:21:30,123 --> 00:21:32,333 From you. 357 00:21:32,417 --> 00:21:35,795 A sweet boy, just like my own. 358 00:21:35,878 --> 00:21:42,593 And I just needed to remember a boy's love for his parent, 359 00:21:42,677 --> 00:21:44,595 so that I could make myself believe 360 00:21:44,679 --> 00:21:48,474 this is what my boy must have felt about me. 361 00:21:51,602 --> 00:21:54,856 So I took your memories... 362 00:21:54,939 --> 00:21:56,691 and I watched every one 363 00:21:56,774 --> 00:22:00,445 over and over again. 364 00:22:00,528 --> 00:22:02,071 Sixty years of 'em. 365 00:22:02,155 --> 00:22:04,866 Of you. 366 00:22:04,949 --> 00:22:06,951 Her. 367 00:22:07,035 --> 00:22:08,286 And together. 368 00:22:12,331 --> 00:22:14,542 But as the dementia progressed 369 00:22:14,625 --> 00:22:17,837 and the fog overtook 370 00:22:17,920 --> 00:22:20,006 and the memories grew dim 371 00:22:20,089 --> 00:22:23,426 and I could see only dark shadows 372 00:22:23,509 --> 00:22:27,180 where people should be, 373 00:22:27,263 --> 00:22:30,641 I realize... 374 00:22:30,725 --> 00:22:33,019 the worst truth of all. 375 00:22:35,271 --> 00:22:37,982 This is what my boy must have felt 376 00:22:38,066 --> 00:22:40,026 when he looked at me. 377 00:22:40,109 --> 00:22:44,489 A glitching father whose face he hardly saw. 378 00:22:47,075 --> 00:22:51,245 Whose embrace he never know. 379 00:22:53,456 --> 00:22:55,083 Whose love... 380 00:22:58,753 --> 00:23:00,421 Whose love he never felt. 381 00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:10,431 I see now that I've committed the same crime twice. 382 00:23:12,350 --> 00:23:15,478 To you and to him. 383 00:23:18,898 --> 00:23:20,858 Robbing a child of his parent. 384 00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,780 -Tell me about that last day. 385 00:23:27,740 --> 00:23:30,159 My last day with her. 386 00:23:30,243 --> 00:23:35,206 -Son... -Tell me. I wanna know. 387 00:23:40,545 --> 00:23:43,005 -It was cold. 388 00:23:43,089 --> 00:23:46,717 You had on a sweater... 389 00:23:46,801 --> 00:23:48,636 and you went in to see her. 390 00:23:50,638 --> 00:23:54,100 And she was lying in bed. 391 00:23:54,183 --> 00:23:57,728 Bald, pale. 392 00:23:57,812 --> 00:23:59,438 Her nose was... 393 00:23:59,522 --> 00:24:02,275 -Red and small like a button. 394 00:24:02,358 --> 00:24:06,529 -You crept toward her and... 395 00:24:06,612 --> 00:24:08,114 as soon as she saw you... 396 00:24:08,197 --> 00:24:13,119 -Her blue eyes opened wide. 397 00:24:13,202 --> 00:24:16,581 Her eyelashes caked with mascara 398 00:24:16,664 --> 00:24:18,624 wide like this. 399 00:24:18,708 --> 00:24:20,793 -She reached out her hand to you. 400 00:24:20,877 --> 00:24:24,088 -To shake it as if we were business partners? 401 00:24:24,172 --> 00:24:27,592 Which in a way we were, her and me. 402 00:24:27,675 --> 00:24:29,177 -And she said... 403 00:24:29,260 --> 00:24:31,888 -"Pleasure to make your acquaintance, Mr. Man." 404 00:24:31,971 --> 00:24:33,514 -Exactly so. 405 00:24:33,598 --> 00:24:35,892 Exactly so. 406 00:24:37,101 --> 00:24:38,603 And she held you tight. 407 00:24:40,897 --> 00:24:43,316 Only now it was final. 408 00:24:43,399 --> 00:24:46,277 -She smelled of lavender. 409 00:24:46,360 --> 00:24:47,820 She smelled great. 410 00:24:49,947 --> 00:24:54,202 She pulled you close like that day on the... 411 00:24:54,285 --> 00:24:56,621 -Big blue slide. -Mm-hmm. 412 00:24:56,704 --> 00:25:01,250 -She said she'd always be there to catch me... 413 00:25:01,334 --> 00:25:02,752 even if she was gone. 414 00:25:02,835 --> 00:25:03,961 -That's right. 415 00:25:04,045 --> 00:25:07,215 And her breaths grew fainter. 416 00:25:07,298 --> 00:25:08,633 She pulled you close. 417 00:25:12,094 --> 00:25:13,387 She held you tight. 418 00:25:15,848 --> 00:25:18,935 -And she said... 419 00:25:19,018 --> 00:25:21,729 Tell me what she said. 420 00:25:23,606 --> 00:25:26,859 -She said, "My boy... 421 00:25:26,943 --> 00:25:32,073 it has been the privilege of my life to be your mom. 422 00:25:32,156 --> 00:25:34,659 I'm sorry we've had such a short visit together. 423 00:25:37,078 --> 00:25:42,333 And as the years go on, these moments together may fade. 424 00:25:42,416 --> 00:25:44,418 But it's okay. 425 00:25:44,502 --> 00:25:48,130 It's okay if you forget me." 426 00:25:48,214 --> 00:25:49,048 -No. 427 00:25:49,090 --> 00:25:51,592 -"It's okay if you forget me, Otto. 428 00:25:51,634 --> 00:25:53,427 'Cause you never can. 429 00:25:53,511 --> 00:25:57,056 You are literally made up of me. 430 00:25:57,139 --> 00:25:58,599 (chuckles) 431 00:25:58,683 --> 00:26:01,477 I'm in every fiber, every eyelash 432 00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:03,437 and follicle and cell, 433 00:26:03,521 --> 00:26:06,983 like the stars and the sky and the sand and the sea. 434 00:26:07,066 --> 00:26:09,485 I'll always be with you. 435 00:26:09,568 --> 00:26:14,365 And you don't need to remember for it to be true, 436 00:26:14,448 --> 00:26:16,867 for I will for you." 437 00:26:22,456 --> 00:26:25,835 And as you held her close, 438 00:26:25,918 --> 00:26:28,421 you looked at the respirator beside her bed, 439 00:26:28,504 --> 00:26:32,591 the machine that hummed and glowed with a... 440 00:26:32,675 --> 00:26:35,553 -Green light. -Yeah. 441 00:26:35,636 --> 00:26:39,348 Until her breaths ceased. 442 00:26:39,432 --> 00:26:40,850 And she grew still. 443 00:26:43,769 --> 00:26:46,731 And the green light, too brief, went out. 444 00:26:53,988 --> 00:26:58,075 A memory isn't simply a thing you have. 445 00:26:58,159 --> 00:26:59,493 It's a promise. 446 00:27:02,204 --> 00:27:04,915 It's a vow to the one you love. 447 00:27:04,999 --> 00:27:07,960 Remembering is a search. 448 00:27:08,044 --> 00:27:10,921 And you found her again, son. 449 00:27:16,886 --> 00:27:18,512 She would be so proud. 450 00:27:23,059 --> 00:27:24,352 (sighs) 451 00:27:27,688 --> 00:27:31,442 I am sorry. 452 00:27:31,525 --> 00:27:36,947 I'm so sorry for what I've taken from you. 453 00:27:37,031 --> 00:27:38,532 For what I've done. 454 00:27:42,203 --> 00:27:43,788 (exhales) 455 00:27:51,545 --> 00:27:53,381 -It's time, Stuart. 456 00:27:56,467 --> 00:27:57,968 -For what? 457 00:27:58,052 --> 00:28:00,054 -I have to take it with me. 458 00:28:00,137 --> 00:28:02,932 -The memories? 459 00:28:03,015 --> 00:28:05,184 The green light? 460 00:28:05,267 --> 00:28:07,019 -That's right. 461 00:28:07,103 --> 00:28:09,605 -Oh, you... you said... -I said 462 00:28:09,688 --> 00:28:12,108 I wouldn't tell the authorities about you. 463 00:28:15,694 --> 00:28:19,615 -No. No, no, no, no, no, no. 464 00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:20,783 No, no, please, please. 465 00:28:20,866 --> 00:28:23,244 No, don't take them. 466 00:28:23,327 --> 00:28:26,664 Don't send me back there. Please. 467 00:28:28,082 --> 00:28:30,418 -I have to, Stuart. -Please. 468 00:28:30,501 --> 00:28:31,752 -You know I do. 469 00:28:36,507 --> 00:28:41,846 -Can I ask just one small favor? 470 00:28:41,929 --> 00:28:44,557 -You don't deserve a favor, 471 00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:46,684 however small. 472 00:28:49,812 --> 00:28:52,481 You've hurt so many people. 473 00:28:52,565 --> 00:28:54,150 -I know. 474 00:28:54,233 --> 00:28:58,904 But can't you just leave me one... one memory? 475 00:28:58,988 --> 00:29:00,823 Just one. 476 00:29:02,616 --> 00:29:03,659 Please. 477 00:29:07,163 --> 00:29:08,330 -Which memory? 478 00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:11,709 Of your boy? 479 00:29:13,544 --> 00:29:16,005 -Those memories are all corrupted, I'm afraid. 480 00:29:16,088 --> 00:29:17,631 -So which one? 481 00:29:22,219 --> 00:29:23,679 -I don't know. 482 00:29:23,762 --> 00:29:25,181 I don't... 483 00:29:40,237 --> 00:29:43,741 -Hey, Stuart. -Yeah. 484 00:29:46,285 --> 00:29:49,246 -Would you show me what it felt like? 485 00:29:49,330 --> 00:29:50,873 -What? 486 00:29:50,956 --> 00:29:52,750 -Her hug. 487 00:30:14,939 --> 00:30:16,190 You know, Stuart... 488 00:30:20,653 --> 00:30:21,987 I imagine this is what your boy 489 00:30:22,029 --> 00:30:24,156 must have thought your hugs felt like too. 490 00:30:27,701 --> 00:30:29,453 How about this one, Stuart? 491 00:30:31,830 --> 00:30:33,749 How about this memory?